FUCK THE SYSTEM.
F**k the system.
For most of my life,
I felt angst, anger, hurt, sadness inside of me,
But I always thought it was distinctly mine.
I thought it was mine to deal with.
My problem to solve.
I thought it was an inconvenient , frustrating truth about ME.
And then I began to open my eyes.
I began to see that while YES, I have responsibility for myself,
There are also really crappy circumstances and people and systems and ways of being that are NOT GOOD,
And we SHOULD be frustrated and angry about them.
In fact,
I say this a lot to clients that come to me,
Who are frustrated at themselves for being bothered by a situation.
I often say something like,
Your anger is appropriate. I would be WORRIED if you were NOT upset about this.
But thatโs part of the system that is harmful.
The system that tells us that being happy all the time is better.
So,
I had to learn to actually externalize my feelings.
Yes.
I had to actually put them on someone else.
On something else.
For a time anyway.
So that I could release myself from this strange prison of self-blame, and constant frustration with the truth of whatโs inside of me.
So,
Is f**k the system the answer the everything?
No.
There is so much internal work to be done.
But is it a really important piece?
(Especially for women and other people who have been conditioned to smile and be perfect all the time)...
YES.
F*CK THE SYSTEM.
Anyone else? ๐๐ปโโ๏ธ
๐ถ: @ginaandtheeasternblock - a genuine THANK YOU to Gina for giving myself and other humans an outlet for this appropriate frustration, both through music and through dance with @littlemissnasty. Love you ๐ค.
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